I can never forget the image of him entering in to our house. 22 years has been passed but that moment is still fresh in my brain.

How does brain work? How does it choose what has to be stored for the rest of our lives. I desperately want to remove that memory but can not. If some jinni gives me 3 wishes today I will tell him give me just 1. Please remove that from my mind.

But that is not possible at least not in this birth. The problem was not him living in our house the problem was me hating him.

Till that point also I would have handled but that hatred should not have turned in to love.

LOVE… People says Love is beautiful Yes it is.! But not if it is with the wrong person.

What was wrong? The time? I guess NO.! I was at a perfect age to fall in love.

The Person? No he was good… at least initially…

Then where things turned upside down?

I could have died for him… and I did actually. What I am living today is not life. It is my heart just pumping blood so that my body works. My eyes are open yet they are closed and now for forever… I do listen to the voices, it is different thing that they are noise for me now.

And how is he living?

It has been years like 2 years I have not heard about him. He is married. Father of 2 sons. Living just a few meters away from my house. My family talks to him but I don’t. Even if I talk what’s the use.

Why I am not ready to get married? I still ask this question to myself.

And the answer is same for last 12 years.

I think I am numb.