I do not know who I am. I was the girl to whom everyone looked and said be like her. And now I am the one like whom no body wants to be. Every time I am rude with someone my self respect reduces by an inch.

I have become louder in last few years. I was an arrogant girl in my childhood also but that behavior was not visible. But since 2010 that behavior is visible actually I should say more than visible. I do not know what has happened to me.

Is this because I did not learn my etiquette lessons properly or is it because I have in four walls for fourteen long years? Why I turned out like this? The most disciplined girl of her college became the villain of her own story.

Every time I look into the mirror I see someone who is telling me that you are a devil no home should have. I try my best to be the best version of myself but I think the best version of me is the worst version of a devil.

I know that we can not make everyone happy… but I am the one who can not make even herself happy. Today, I do not know how to talk to others, respect them, which words should I not use. I do not respect me that much which I used to.

What should I do? I want to live with the shine in my eyes but now a days I see the guilt of having foul mouth.

I was not like this few years back but today I am… I really do not recognize myself…

I am really very Sorry Meenakshi…